Rainbow Baby Boy

Well it's official we are expecting a baby boy! We are thrilled and couldn't be more excited to have another boy in the house! I found out at 18 weeks at one of my regular cervical length checks, kinda by accident. Seth wasn't even there he was in Denver, but baby was not being shy and when the tech was checking him out he decided to give us a perfect shot. I looked at the tech and I said "well that's a boy!" She replied back "yes there is no denying that one!" So it was official!! I was not surprised at all by this news though, I have felt we were having a boy from the beginning. I told quite a few people that I was pretty sure it was a boy and everyone would say, oh yeah I know someone that thought they were having a boy and it was a girl, so just wait for your ultrasound. I have learned now to trust my instincts though, with Amelia I had a feeling it was a girl and I was right and I was right again this time! So after the appointment I went to Target and did some shopping, I couldn't resist, then I went to Hobby Lobby and picked up a few things for the nursery and then I came home and did some online shopping! I told Aiden right away when he got home from school,and that night he told Seth that we were having a boy! Seth was excited but like me he ultimately didn't care, as long as this baby is healthy and we get to bring a baby home this time we don't care. So now I am in total boy mode, which is strange and I didn't expect to be so easy. From the moment I found out we were pregnant everytime we would be at a store that had baby cloths my eyes were automatically drawn to pink. Even though I had a very strong feeling this baby was a boy I was worried I was going to be disappointed deep down that it wasn't a girl. I will admit I have had a few moments where I see a baby girl and I feel this lump in my throat and a hint of jealously. Don't get me wrong I love this baby boy more then words can say and I can't wait to meet him, and I wouldn't change having another boy for anything, but I have my moments. I guess I always thought I would have a girl to dress up and play barbies and dolls with and have that mother daughter relationship with. And I have a daughter now that I just don't get to do those things with right now, and that still makes me so incredibly sad. I at least know what to do with a boy, and we have just about every boy toy made so he will be set for toys, if big brother will share them! I know I will probably always have those feelings and that they will come up when I least expect them to. If we decide to have another one after this, will I hope for a girl, probably, but if its another boy then I will be ok with that too! I know that everything happens for some reason and I just might be meant to have a house full of boys and a daughter in heaven. I am almost 22 weeks now and this boy is a busy one already, he is constantly moving and kicking and I absolutely love it! Seth and Aiden both were able to feel him kick at 20 weeks, which I have read is really early. It doesn't surprise me though, his kicks are strong, Amelia never kicked me this hard in that last week when I was pregnant with her. Makes me wonder how all those kicks will feel in 10 weeks when hes starting to run out of room! After Christmas we plan on finishing his nursery, still need to buy a crib and changing table and a bunch of baby stuff! Times have changed so much since we had Aiden, so many more things to buy! I am super excited to baby shop, I have never gotten to do it! With Aiden we had no money so everything we got was either a gift or a hand me down. Which I am forever grateful to all the people that gave us stuff and bought us baby items, but I am so excited to be able to pick out exactly what I want this time. I am also buying everything gender neutral, just in case another Hoff baby is in our future! When I was pregnant with Aiden I had a dream that I had 4 kids, one more and that dream would come true!! I just need to get my husband onboard with the idea!