Answered Prayers

This is going to be the first post that I have written in the past 4 months that is happy! I went out for a run this morning and all I could think about was how annoyed I am that I still haven't heard anything from my insurance company. So for almost 6 miles I thought about this, and got more and more annoyed. When I got home I called Seth, first of all to tell him how far I ran, I was pretty happy with myself, and also to tell him how frustrated I was. He suggested that I call the insurance company and find out what the statis was on my appeal. I called and of course was put on hold for what seemed like forever, and then the words that I had lost hope for, "Your surgery has been approved"!! I was instantly in shock and disbelief and asked the lady "are you sure?"  And then when she said yes I said "Your serious?" And again she said "Yes". Then I told her thank you and that now I was going to start crying. I couldn't keep the tears back, I was just so happy. I still can't believe that I am actually going to get my surgery, 1 week ago I had kind of just lost hope that they would approve it. I guess it is easier for me to not get my hopes up then have them up and then be completely disappointed when they say no. When I got off the phone with the insurance company I instantly called Seth and told him and he was just as excited and happy and then I called my Mom who was also very excited. I finally feel that something good is happening for Seth and I. I feel like the last 4 months have been one step forward 20 back and now we are finally beginning to move forward and this time we have some momentum. I also feel that all the praying I did and that other people did for us, those prayers were answered. I know that God and Amelia had a hand in this, because according to my doctor appeals don't typically get approved. Our little angel was watching over us and getting us through this. It is hard to put into words what this surgery means to me, but if I had to I would say it gives me hope. Hope that my future and the future for my family is brighter then it was yesterday. I wasn't sure if another baby was in my future, and now I know that someday when the time is right I will get my rainbow baby, and that baby boy or girl will have a little piece of Amelia in him or her. I have been given another chance at becoming a mommy to a baby that I will get to hold in my arms and bring home. I know Amelia has a plan for her family and this is just the first step to a very bright future that she is going to help create. I just wish I could give her a big giant hug and kiss to thank her for everything she is doing, but I know that she knows how thankful I am for her and just how much I love her!